According to researchers, after reviewing and monitoring tweets and other social media postings, today has been determined statistically to be "the most miserable day of the year", or "Blue Monday". It's when the holiday cheer slips behind us, people return to their regular work schedules, and the reality of the aftermath of those expenses comes along with facing winter at its worst. It seems that I couldn't escape this day unscathed either.
I've been rendered flu-stricken. I have been so since Sunday morning. I'm being tormented with a fever, being drenched in cold sweat, headaches, muscle cramps and weakness, and other respiratory issues. It couldn't have happened at a worse time because it sets me up in an approach-avoidance dilemma. I have used my New Year's stat holiday (which now looks like a pretty much wasted deal) for a challenge coming up tomorrow in which I'll need 100% of my brain's capacity to have instantaneous memory recall, mental focus, and a quick reaction time. The critical factor is whether or not to use symptom relief. If I don't use it, I'd continue suffering and weakening from the sleeplessness and appetite loss that follows; a brain made useless through fatigue. If I do use the stuff, I might be more physically settled and able to eat and sleep, but then I risk reducing my brain into a useless fog-filled mush through their side effects that may not subside on time. It's like there's a no win situation. I feel like my chances for any success tomorrow have been sabotaged, no matter what course I take. I hope I'm wrong.
This paragraph comes three hours after the last one. My effort to rest was futile and I caved. I had to get out and find healthful food and remedies. I knew it was getting bad for me, but I didn't realize as to how really rough shape I was in until a stranger approached me and asked if I was alright as I shivered and staggered around the grocery store. I'm frustrated even more about realizing how much this year is starting to unfold as another close-to-identical cycle of the crap I faced last year in terms of illness and weather, as indicated by the entry Cooking with a Head full of Neo C. However, this time I sure as hell have no mood nor energy to cook. I am going to be practical; pace my doses, closely monitor my states of alertness between them, and adjust the timing appropriately for tomorrow. I'm writing right now more as a means of performance feedback, to see how the process is going for me. It's probably a good moment to be mindful to do something, anything, for the sake of betterment that is radically different to break this cycle.
Firstly, let's try to look on the bright side of things. It's 20 degrees warmer than it was yesterday (it's still -31 C in the wind). . . well, it's a small start. The rest I left to exploring sites on how to escape the mid-winter blues. For all the other fellow Blue Monday sufferers and resolution makers, here's a link on Wikihow .for you to use.
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